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Wednesday, 02 July 2008

  • How long is the road?

    Every drop of tears are streaming very painful.
    Eyes cannot open. I had ready accepty the result.
    That is me. But I cannot control  tears kept streaming.
    I am the worst nurse's student in the class.
    I have proved all. I cannot.
    補完實習又補,真係衰到貼地~可能連學位都拿不到
    我接受最差勁的我,那有用嗎? 接受上帝創造的這我
    但怎樣用力祂給我的一千錢,仍是一千
     
       

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

  • 不能言說.....

    還有一個星期多就完這四年的實習,之後就放假la,我都很想去四川親身體驗當地的救護工作,只怪自己不爭氣,技術未夠班,肥老左,要補1個月實習,不能參與這次抗災之旅.日子過得很漫長,之後還要再去心科實習,心裏真是十萬個不願意,我唔想補實習呀~一個大頭蝦的護士,一個無記性的護士,一個成日撞板的護士,一個對自己好無信心的護士,佢可以做些什么?上帝呀~help me......希望現在在這個星期在急診做事真的要加倍留神,順利通過,都還可以預期在今年九月分畢業;一個唔叻,唔聰明,唔醒目,唔靚,又唔善擅溝通的人,第日出來做野,一定會頭頭撞著黑la........點算好!唉~~就是這樣過一輩子,我不要呀!上帝求你帶領我去到你的地方,我可以做些什么?一種低等動物,變得不懂思考,咕啦啦,還有放空.......求神帶我去到一個能夠用得著我的地方,對於前景確實還有點疑惑,只有交托給祂

Saturday, 01 December 2007

  • 總是這樣.....

    已來到第三個實習的科室，現時讓我體會最深就是與人相處之道，何時才會掌握這個技巧。做每一件事應該多想一步，要體諒人的處境，不要只看見自己的需要。或許我就是欠久缺基督捨己的心，或許仍然還存有一點兒驕傲自我，或許這些難忍的經歷就是上帝要把我這個不完美的人塑造得更美麗。

Sunday, 18 November 2007

  • Psalms 139 (my lovely )

     For the choir director: A psalm of David. O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me.

    2 You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away.

    3 You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am.

    4 You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD.

    5 You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head.

    6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!

    7 I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence!

    8 If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the place of the dead,* you are there.1

    9 If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans,

    10 even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.

    11 I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night--

    12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to you.

    13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.

    14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous--and how well I know it.

    15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

    16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

    17 How precious are your thoughts about me,* O God! They are innumerable!2

    18 I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up in the morning, you are still with me!

    19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked! Get out of my life, you murderers!

    20 They blaspheme you; your enemies take your name in vain.

    21 O LORD, shouldn't I hate those who hate you? Shouldn't I despise those who resist you?

    22 Yes, I hate them with complete hatred, for your enemies are my enemies.

    23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.

    24 Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.